Friday, January 1, 2010


Last year at this time I felt like I was limping a tattered, used up soul over the year's finish line. 2009 was truly a clean start. I'm not sure how I got so lucky. I believe that angels have watched over me.

After heaving a suitcase out of the window, almost immediately a breeze blew in with weightless but precious treasures. Treasures that were mine with just a deep breath of the fresh air.

I met an angel, or an angel gave me a friend who was like me. I learned how to see tangible beauty in abstract pain.

I had to fight for my job, and it was healthy for me.

I tried, really hard, to let my loved ones look all the way into my eyes without pulling the invisible curtains across.

I embraced my husband and I told him I loved him and needed him every day, many times. We made a baby boy. This baby I carry into the New Year, truly the fruits of my labor in life

(and yet, I have not earned this, and yet, I have)

I look to 2010 with joy, gratitude and humility. I wish you all an adventure per day, wholeness of being, and love, love, love.



Maria said...

Love, love, love for you as well, this is beautiful and 2010 is going to be a year overflowing with blessings for all.

Claire said...

something inside of me deeps a really deep breath whilst reading this.

i can sense the newness. the freshness.

Claire said...

oops : )

i meant to say: something inside of me breathes a really deep breath.

cindy said...

you deserve all the good things that have come your way!

kendalee said...

What a difference a year makes. I still remember the first of your posts I read and how it touched me so deeply. I've felt really honoured to witness even a glimpse of this profound journey Sheila, one which it feels to me you've travelled so bravely and honestly, and expressed so beautifully. And which has inspired me to be braver too. Thank you for this and for your lovely wishes, which I accept gladly and wish for you too - love, love, love, especially! I can't wait to see how 2010 unfolds...

deb said...

May I say that I'm happy for you too.
And that holding your baby in your arms will be joy unimagined.
Wishes for good things to you too.

My Farmhouse Kitchen said...

Stopping by to say Hello and wishing you all good things for 2010...sounds like it will be a special year...


onesilentwinter said...

beautiful post sheila, thank you for your kindness and friendship.