Thursday, April 16, 2009


You can call me a porcelain doll and I will smile and nod and you will be right. You will be right about the stillness even though this body ran over girls like a truck and propelled its muddy self through air to connect with a ball. You will be right about the order even though my socks never match and the clothes on the floor grow into mountains and the perfect meal never makes its way to the table. You will be right about the quiet even though my heart never sleeps and it won't shut the hell up and my thoughts perseverate in order to be heard over the raucous. It's all true, as every fibre of this living thing contradicts its neighboring ceramic particles.

7 comments:

The Girl From Cherry Blossom Street said...

Wow, a spot-on juxtaposition of words.
And the photo is a metaphor.

Beverly Ash Gilbert said...

Aren't we all complex contradictions? Our outer self not always meshing with who we are, or who we want to be?

In my 20's I was a pretty, little girl who drove a huge, beat-up pickup in Los Angeles to my job as an engineer on a high tech aerospace project. I loved that no one seeing me could figure out what I did nor who I really was. No-one understood why I preferred my pickup to a fancy little sports car, or loved playing football, or loved getting dressed up to go to the symphony. But even then, all of what I portrayed wasn't who I really was.

Now my life, and my looks, are so different - I look like a middle aged housewife / mom and drive a minivan - yikes! And yet I still don't look like who I am and I'm not sure I know.

Claire said...

Porcelain never did smile or cry or hurt or laugh the way you do and that is what makes the difference. Your are alive and your writing makes it very evident!

kendalee said...

You have such an incredible talent for capturing the nuanced inner world. Beautifully and succinctly. I'm in awe.

david mcmahon said...

My first visit here and I think you are a very gifted photographer, having looked at some of your older posts as well.

Your writing is very powerful, too.

I came here from The Girl From Cherry Blossom Street ...

in another lifetime said...

thank you all very, very much for your positive feedback!!

The Things We Carried said...

Love the photo, and the words left me wishing you had written more. Congrats on POTD mention!